12/2/09 Dr K NMarket

This morning I did well with time. I think that staying within a time frame helps to keep stress down. If you know you're going to be late, you might feel tight in your shoulders and chest. It's better for the body to stay relaxed. Everyone knows that, but . . . everyone's questions are --how, how, how.

Luke's back hurts. So he hasn't been able to fill the bird feeders. I had extra time this morning and was able to . . . .put out food for the birds. It was my first time filling the feeders. I had felt that it was going to be too hard for me with my cane. I took it one step at a time: fill the bucket with bird seed and peanuts in their shells for the squirrels, then go outside. It wasn't too cold. That was good. I didn't care if I dropped seeds because some birds prefer to eat from the ground and also the squirrels. I found it easy to fill the feeders. Yes. I wasn't sure if I would be able to clean the top feeder , but I can always ask Linda for help. I am finding more things easier than I thought. Confidence and gentle risk taking are good for the cells.

I looked out the window to see if Earl and Sita had found the peanuts. Oooops. The blue jays were out like dive bombers. They got every nut and the sqirrels didn't even though I'd put out their street. They were strong and pretty. There were about eight.

It was rainy and grey which I find peaceful. I drove to Dr K's in that peace. Peace is healthy--for the mind and the body. Duh, you say. Peace is there in most situations. You have to find it and revel in it to get the magic going. You have that choice with your whole life.

Dr K adjusted my back and brought it back into alinment. I could walk without the cane. I'm thinking about that. Maybe I can replicate that feeling. I have to think about it.

I went home to rest before NM. A beautiful grey cat with soft color patterns in her fir keeps trying to eat the birds. She doesn't catch them. Suddenly I realize. She's hungry. She's traveling with a thin orange cat. Did someone move and leave them behind. The little grey wants to come in. That makes me think that she had a home. I can't let her because Luke is allergic. It wouldn't be fair. I'm tempted but . . . .I put out tuna. The thin orange cat is so hungry. He eats.

At NMarket we had a quiet evening. It's raining hard. At the end of the evening, I talked to a customer who made me laugh. She eats like I do or like I used to. And she called about safflower oil for dieting. I think she'll come in on Sunday to see some ideas that I have about losing weight.

I was going to go home early but a customer stopped me. She wanted to talk about dieting as well. I went home in the rain. Again. When you don't have long to drive, rain is soft and brings you into the self.