2/28 NM & My Hair, Dinner: Bobby cooks again! Yay!

I got up excited. My hair rocks. Dream hair I never thought I'd have. The only problem is that I can't take a shower. I just don't want to take a chance and get this gorgeous stuff wet before the 72 hours are up. I fill the sink with hot water and I wash the places on me that need daily washing. But . . . it will do.

Sadly I hate to miss my shower --at a time when I have a little cold. I believe a good scrub in hot water can get rid of germs.

I get to Nature's Market looking forward to Matt's reaction when he sees "La Hair." He loves it. Many customers comment favorably. Very. Matt's mom says that my hair is to die for and that she wishes she could silken her hair. I feel so happy about the reaction I'm getting. Chuck, our massage therapist says that I look 20 years younger. He felt like my kids did that my hair looked ikk before. I am so happy. This is one of my life-long dreams come true. I'm smiling and smiling.

Em and Bobby decide to have dinner at their house. Em tells me that they are ordering out. Instead, when we get to their house, Bobby was inspired to cook--because (some folks weren't able to come for dinner and he doesn't like those folks) Truthfully, it was nice--just having the family. There were six dishes on the table--Em, Bobby and the kids. I think the kids felt better as well. They were so sweet and we talked about real things. They didn't eat and jump up.

Em surprised me by starting dinner with a prayer and asked me to lead the prayer. I was so touched. We talked about a serious , awful situation at Jennifer's school. Two wealthy seniors did the unthinkable to a freshman. So awful. Then we talked about the early years. Fun times. Like when MKate and I took the Littles to a movie that we thought was about animals. Well it sort of was. Too bad it was pornographic. We were horrified and just prayed that the kids didn't know. Now, so many years later we all laughed.

What a happy, happy time. A blessing.

Matt had blessings as well. He got a promotion at work and his lamp drama was turned to his advantage when he got two fab lamps for the price of one.

2/25,26, 27 Cat leaps, Squirrel bounces , HAIR

2/25

Ok. It's true. When I don't write for a few days, I loose track of when something happened. I think it was Thur a.m. Even if I've shared this before, it's a wow story. I was looking out the window, watching the birds at the feeder. There was Greyling, The Fairy Princess. She bent her knees and leaped straight up. This feeder is high. She's still a kitten, and she jumped like an olympic athlete. She batted the bird. The bird got away but I was amazed.

We had a pleasant trip to B town. It was cute to see Luke and Xavier walking out of the school. When X gets in the car, he wants to tell me about his success in video games. At home, he didn't have much homework and we didn't push it. I turned off the wall switch and messed up the t.v. so he couldn't play. He was frustrated and ran around a little bit, but not too much. He couldn't figure out how to play his computor game or even watch t.v. He went upstairs, where Luke was having a nap, and wanted to watch t.v. I asked him to let Papa sleep, and he wouldn't. I said quietly that I was disappointed, and went down stairs. I was reading one of his new books when he came down. I read to him and he got quiet.

Rain and Ry came home with Violet. The kids and I went upstairs to play bear games. It was fun. Violet is so very and clear in her speech. She's so small that it makes everything she does seem extra cute.

After dinner, I watched Max and Ruby videos with the kids.

2/26 I was looking out the window when I saw a squirrel. He had climbed high and out onto a thin branch. You wouldn't think it could hold him. When the wind blew, the branch bounced up and down--like a circus act or a kid's ride. He was playing.

After work, MKate and I ate dinner at Chez Shapiro. Then, we went to an ICO concert. It took place in the Art Museum in their new film theatre. The orchestra played for a silent film. The score was written by a modern composer in the style of. My fav was a film by the great and amazing star, Harold LLoyd. After a serious injury to his hand, this man performed feats that were mind blowing. He created a sense of excitement that brought the audience to it's feet--for him and for our amazing ICO and Luke--concert master.

2/26 All my life I've been jealous of those women, mostly models , who have the magic silken hair. I don't. I do the best I can, and my hair looks o.k. but not magic. Em gave me a session with her hair dresser, Eric, who --in three short hours-- gave me silken hair. Model hair. The kind I've always wanted. I'm soooo excited.

2/24 Dr K, MKate's B-day. Cleaning,

I went for my adjustment. I was feeling pleased with myself. I had to wash my hair this a.m. which I would never choose to do on an early (for Ashley) out. I asked Luke (he wakes me up each a.m.) to wake me at 8:30 (early for me since HiNi) and I got right up. No fooling around and got into the shower. I got to it. Washed the mop and got ready for the day. I was out of the house on time. Yes. Perfect.

My adustment was good. Amy told more AJ (her little son) stories. AJ's dad took him to Walmart. AJ struck up a conversation with a man he met. He asked

, "Do you work here?" The man said no and AJ moved on. Shortly in the pastery section AJ saw a woman bringing out cakes and arrainging them on a shelf. AJ asked her, "Do you like to set out cakes?" He's so young, but he's wondering about the world around him. His last and funniest remark --I forgot. Opps. I knew I should have written it down.

Because I got to Dr. K's on time, I left the office with plenty of time to do the chores that I had to do. All got done and there were several. For some reason when I went to the bank there was no parking. It's unusual for the lot to be so crowded. I drove around a few times and wasn't having any luck. When a spot did open up, someone else got it. I thought about going home and banking next week. Then I thought, no . . . I can do this and imagined a spot opening up right where I wanted it. And when I drove around again, quess what ? the prime spot opened up. Right next to the door. Yes.

I went home to wait for MKate. I was taking her to breakfast for her B-day. (A late, Ashley sort of breakfast). We were supposed to meet at 2. For some reason I thought MK was going to call me when she got out of exercise class. She thought that I'd just be at Le Peep at 2. So I called her and had her give in my order.

Breakfast was delicious. My ham steak was moist and tender. Scrumptious. We had fun conversations. Then MK went to work and I went home to deep clean and reorder our home with Luke. We worked. We really worked. Putting things in the 3 piles: give away, throw out and keep, but put away neatly in it's own special place.

At 7 we were fried and stopped for the night feeling good .

2/22-23 Med class, Evan's game: 23 Cleaning, Hatha

2/22 The students in meditation class are going into deep states. There is no doubt that Bapuji and the great beings join us. I did a beautiful reading on gratitude. I am still meditating on it. The part that got my attention was being grateful for the parts of yourself that you haven't liked. I realized that what I consider to be my character flaws bring me some of my greatest lessons. I'll be contemplating that lesson for a long time. At the end of class, I slipped into meditation myself (I shouldn't when I'm teaching) and forgot to blow out the offering candle. So I ended having to throw it out. I hate to waste, but . . . . what a fabulous feeling.

I did some work at home, then Dan came to pick up Luke and I to see Evan's game. It was an all star game--the best players. Evan played extremely well. He got some good baskets and was excellent at defense. However, the other team has some future stars and a great coach. They ran away with the game.

2/23 I spent this whole day organizing papers and getting bills out. Making calls and taking care of business. It's good to know that I'm making progress at last.

I was tired at night, but ready to teach my Hatha class. Bobby was supposed to come to class, but had to drive the kids to their events. He took away Jennifer's car. Without getting into someone else's karma, I think, in the end, it will be a good thing for everyone.

Tonight there were several new people in Hatha. Natalie took the class. She did a great job meditating. I haven't seen her in ages . Natalie is the wife of one of my fav people. Brian K was my employer for years and years, when I taught at the JCC. He's a fine human being, married to a fine human being. She had her hair done in a cute style. She's interested in how my hair process works. I'll know next week.

Again the meditation part of class was so peaceful that I felt that I could touch God within. I could breath in the peace. I'm so grateful for the excellent students that bring their peace to class.

2/20-21 Plum's, Movie Night: NM, Dinner at PF Changs

2/20 Luke and I taught a meditation and classical music class at MMovement. I realize that I haven't called people. I have to think why I didn't? I'm not sure. Paula Saffire was there. We always like talking with her. She knew Baba and spent time with him. We have a bond. Luke's playing rocks it out. I have to teach basics because the married couple has no experience at all with yoga or meditation.

After class, we meet Em for lunch at our fav Plum's Upstairs. There's a party already there so we don't get our window seat. We all have their signiture French Tomato soup with rice. So delicious. We add a cheese plate. Not ideal for a diet but the cheeses are very fresh and tasty. Em wants to share a decision that she's about to make. We feel fortunate that our adult daughter wants to share with us. I have a good feeling that she'll make a good decision and that she'll be happy.

Luke and I did a few chores and then went home to rest and choose a movie. We chose, "Percy Jackson and the Olympians. " Yes. It's a kids movie. But we like good kid flicks. It had all the ingredients that I love: magic, adventure and fun characters. Also good wins over evil.

2/ 21 This morning the squirrels were out. Two were having a chat on different branches of nearby trees. They were flapping their tails. It was like a conversation in mime. First one tail would flap up and down, then the other.

I got to Nature's Market ready to rock and roll. We had an interesting day. I met a few new customers and I think I was able to help them. One couple was sweet. The wife was there to help and support her husband. I offered them some ideas and I think they were excited to get started.

We had a good day. Cuteness wins out again.

Luke and I met Bobby and Em at PF Changs. This is one of my favs. Even Luke is won over by their delicious flavor profiles. We have fun. Bobby and I love to talk about reality shows. Tonight we talked about "The Millionaire Match Maker."

I had shrimp in garlic sauce with broccoli and brown rice. Perfect. Luke and I shared a tiny dessert. Luke had his fav, hot, fried fish.

Fun and yummy.

2/18-19 BTown & the Littles; Construction, NM

2/18 We work with our contractor and his assistant, Aaron. It's hard to see where the den is going. I feel concerned.

We have a nice drive to B town. We have to talk about some issues, but try to be laid back, and trust that all will be well.

At Xavier's school, Luke goes inside to pick up Xavier. He's excited to tell us about his wins in his favorite game--Lego Super Heros. He keeps going until he succeeds. I've been inspired by him.

At home, Xavier and I play with Pet Society. We've given him a card with lots of prime coins. Now he can buy some of the fun things he wants for his pet--including a machine that transports your pet into another area. Suddenly you are visiting a new pet friend. X was happy to play with the new items he bought. Fun.

We had dinner at the Turkish place. I'm concerned that it will make Luke feel sick, but he wants to go anyhow. It's fun. Violet is in a great mood. She wants to sit on Papa's lap. He feeds her and she eats a little. Then she sits on my lap and I make up a story for her. Different animals come to my house for M&M. The bunny wants one M&M, the kitten wants two and so on. Finally V comes for M&M's and she gets 11. She's very sweet.

The drive home is kind of hard. Lots of traffic and I'm tired. But through grace we get home safe and sound. Although I am tired, I count my blessings.

2/19 Aaron (painter) came to paint the Den/Meditation room. I was concerned. I tend to like warm south westeren colors (Luke likes them too.) I hope it won't be a problem when we sell. I found out that Aaron used to paint demo houses for big contractors. So, he really knows color and what in. We worked together and found colors that I love. Luke was working but I'm sure he's going to love the new colors. Aaron says that the toast ( deeper brown ) that I selected for our accent wall is totally in. I was happy. Soon, Luke and I will put our den back together . There are books all over the floor. We'll give some away and display the rest. We haven't had enough book shelves, but now we do.

Chaos in the morning. I was trying to get my Hatha Yoga done. I had to work with Aaron and Miss Kitty came for her lunch. She's so cute. She loves to watch me get ready for the day, while she is in the bathroom sink. But I have to pay attention to her, to Aaron (luckily he's a cat owner and understands). and get ready for work. The phone keeps ringing. OMG.

I get to work tired. I have a sandwhich, but I'm not really hungry. I give it to Kay because she forgot to bring lunch and I'm not sorry. I get my work done and meet some interesting customers. I think I was able to help a few. I like meeting new people.

2/16-17 Hatha Yoga, Art is picked up--Ohhhh

2/16 The weather was cold. MKate and I went to Target. MKate doesn't shop Target like I do. She likes Costco better. And I did join Costco for Chirstmas shopping, but prefer Target for regular shopping. I think Target is fun. They usually have what I want at reasonable prices. MKate found great gifts for her adorable grandkids--Max and Abbie. It's so strange, Abbie is a lot like I was at her age.

I taught Hatha. OMG I fell into a deep meditation. I almost wasn't able to continue with the class. Which is good. For me. I've felt great ever since. Peaceful and good inside. Happy.

2/17 Went to Dr K. Talked to Judy on the way. She just came back from a visit to her grandkids. Austin's adoption went through today. So it's cool that I called her. He's blond and cute and looks just like the rest of the family. Did I mention big blue eyes. The baby is , of course , the sweetest. Judy is pretty and this baby looks a lot like her.

I finished the painting this morning. That is I had no time to do any more. So it was finished, whether I really thought so or not. And I didn't.

I went to NM and stayed there, luckily there was a lot of work. This was the day that a volunteer came to pick up "Oooooh, Angel's In The Garden." I didn't want to stop working on the painting --sooo . Luckily Kay, manager of NM, needed me to stay.

Luke called me about the Schwan's order. I asked he if the painting was gone. He said yes. So, I did my shopping and went home. I love Schwan's. They have these great meals that you can put in the microwave for 15 min and yay--dinner.

2/13-15 Cirque Du Soleil/Vday/ Verizon -new phones

2/13 We were invited to Cirque Du Soleil in our friend, Matt's suite. At first I was concerned about walking around such a huge space as Conseco Fieldhouse. But as always people are sweet to me. The head guard escorted Luke and I to where we needed to meet Matt (Starbucks) and he took us the easy way.

We had coffee with Matt and Sandy. Then found out we had the use of a suite. It was a lot of walking but I got through it (thanks to my recent weight loss--yes, it makes a difference). We sat in the front row of the suite. There were snacks and drinks.

The Cirque Du Soleil was magical. I loved the mimes. So expressive--funny and moving. I'm not a clown person, but these mimes were not clowns and they were the thread that held the show together. There were two amazing singers. And the acrobats and other performers were awesome. Our favs were a man who seemed to fall from the ceiling. He was held by a bungee cord which he used to almost fly. The audience was transfixed. And a woman who danced with a long ribbon that she used to create flowing, dancing shapes. She also worked with metal hoops. She was able to move them up and down her body. I'm not sure how.

The combination of thrilling acts , magical sets and costumes, and music were enchanting. I'm so excited that we got to see it, and from such excellent seats.

2/14 I came out of the shower to see a huge card on my side of the bed and an adorable toy lion. He purrs and laughs and if you pull his tail he meows. I love him and I'm going to make him a part of my daily morning practices. He can keep away the bad vibs.

I went to NM during the day. At night, MKate, Luke and I had dinner at Noodles and saw a romantic movie--"Valentine's Day." The movie got bad reviews. We liked it (although it wasn't great). The key idea was that if you want to have love in your life, you have to take the person you love faults and all. I think it's true.

2/15 Meditation class very deep. I shared a story from the book, "Meeting God, " which I'm hoping to buy and read soon. The true story was a journey of love and faith that saved the life of a child.

2/10, 11, 12 grandkids, letting go of the old

2/10 Well. Luke and I went to Dr K. After NM, I may have finished the painting. Ohhhh.

2/11 Luke and I go to B-town. We're concerned because Luke isn't feeling well. It's his digestion again. He doesn't eat much lunch, but he wants to see the littles so we carry on.

Luke goes inside the school to pick up Xavier. When they come out, I notice that X's hair is getting long. Rain has decided to let it grow. He looks like a rock star. Xander is one good looking kid. He's excited to tell us about his wins on in the world of t.v. boy games. He's competitive and that will be good for the future.

He has become so cooperative. This school has been good for him. He does his homework with papa--no complants. Then we watch him play his games. I love to sit with him while he plays. He invited me to play with him. I'd rather watch him. When it's time to stop playing, I give X five more minutes and he cooperates. What a difference from last year.

We go to Golden Corral. Luke and I like it. It's not too expensive and the food is good for dieting and for health. It's simple and easy to digest. Luke had no problem eating a big meal. So we're happy. Violet is charming. She comes from day care in her little second hand ballet skirt, sweat shirt and jeans. She's mellow. Not wanting to eat too much, but mellow and sweet to be around. She says I love you gramma. And of course, I love to hear it. X sits between Papa and me. He loves us both and feels completely comfortable with us. We're at peace together.

The meal is comfortable and delicious. We have fun. The trip home is peaceful. I'm grateful that Luke feels better.

2/12 O.K. I had to let go of the home structure that I've known for so long. I hope it will be for the best. I'm not ready to be specific. It was hard for me. I let go.

Mike and Aaron worked all day. I went to NM.

2/6-9 Wow. Four days. Will I remember?

2/6 Movie night. We saw a great movie. I think it will win some oscars for it's stars and etc.

"Crazy Heart. " The acting was amazing.

2/7 Nature's Market. Matt and I have fun, but no one comes in. Maybe three people.

At home, I wanted to finish a pasta dish that I started with Luke this morning. We're bringing it to Em and Bobby's Super Bowl Party. It's a veggie dish so Em and Nicole can enjoy it. We get to Em and Bobbys in time for the kick off. The food is good. Everyone likes Luke and my dish. And I'm especially happy that Jennifer liked our dish and her friend liked it as well. Em and Nicole played scrabble. Jennifer and her friends had their party down stairs. Even and his friend were with us and then upstairs as well. I was in the t.v. room to see the commericals and a little of the game. I also did the Sunday puzzle.

Well, the Colts didn't win. After their fantastic season, everyone was stunned. But the team that did win, The Saints , (New Orleans) brought pride and happiness to a city that had been through hell and back. So Luke and I couldn't be too unhappy.

2/8 Meditation class was beautiful and deep. I did toe relaxation exercise. You visualize your big toe (either one) and then picture each cell, bone , blood and etc relaxing, letting to, in total surrender. Then you allow that feeling of deep relaxation to fill the body and mind. This really helps teach the body/mind what deep relaxation means. Cathy slid into meditation and almost didn't come back for the rest of class. So cool.

MKate came over for lunch. We had a diet lunch. How good are we.

Then Luke and I worked on papers. And worked on papers. And there is a lot more to go.

I worked on the painting. I took a deep breath and made the changes I wanted to make. Scary and I have a way to go.

2/9 Snow. Ice cold. We made this a paper work day. Yes. All day. I feel good and I know that Luke feels good as well. We are making progress. Yay!

1/4-5 The flu, Target: Snow and Chill, Hungry Kitten, NM

1/4 I had a achy night. Still a little fever. Luke was smiling when he came downstairs. He handed me an envelop. It was the 50th anniversary of our first date. Luke gave me an adorable card, making fun of me (in a cute way) for being a cute gramma. It's a joke with our friends and family. Inside was a great gift , personal to us. No. I don't plan to share.

We spent the day doing things. First we went to Target. I got a new watch with a blue face. Candles for prayer. I use lots--every day. And some other fun stuff. Then we went to Goodman's and Luke got two pair of great shoes. Not the usual that doesn't end up feeling good on his feet. Luke spent the gift that Em gave him for Chirstmas. She'll be happy.

1/5 We kept hearing about the big storm. It was supposed to start last night. But it didn't. I was hoping that Luke wouldn't have to work today and drive on slick, icy roads. He's supposed to be on sabatical and he's intitled to stay home on ickky days. Anyway I think so. Even though it didn't snow last night, the sky was very white and looked dangerous. A quiet settled down on our world. The quiet before the storm. And then the snow began to fall.

Of course, Luke being Luke was getting ready to haul it to Butler. I asked him to call and check. Good thing he did. The auditions (that he was going to hear) were due to start right then. There was no point going in. Noone had called to tell him. Yay.

I found out this morning that I had to e-mail my bio to Daren. I'm so excited for this art project. Sooo excited. I spent the morning refining the bio that I started last week. It rocked and said everything I wanted to say about my career. I could see the thread going through all that I've done over the years. I know that God brought this project to me.

MKate ,being the amazing person that she is, was going to work for me today. I wasn't going to let that happen. She worked for me last week so Luke and I could have the Teddy Bear Picnic with Xander.

So with promises to be careful, I set out to work. People who depend on a cane, as I do, have to be more careful than the average bear on wintry or on very wet days. As I'm pulling out of the driveway, I see a bad sight. My little Greyling, the Fairy Princess , is sitting on a lawn chair on our porch. She's cold. And I know she's hungry. If Luke weren't home, I wouldn't have been able to go to work. I called him. He let her right in and fed her. Poor Princess was so hungry that she licked the platter clean. Bless his heart. He's such a loving person and I know how much he loves our Princess.

Work was fun. I got to start work on our new Valentine's day--heart healthy display. I love to work on displays. One of my fav customers came in for a nutrient for his sick puppy. Linda came in to tell a very, very sad story about a little pup that she tried to save. Through God's grace, she found this poor injured pup keeping guard over his dead sib. She brought the poor little guy to the Human Society. They came up and even though it was closing time , they took the little guy right in. They tried but couldn't save him. At least he didn't die alone and scared. I hope little Charlie is with the angels now.

People should respect animals and love them. They are God's creatures. A woman called about her 17 year old cat who was having a bad reaction to dental surgery and wouldn't eat. Now he was hiding under her bed. I just keep talking to her. Finally she had the confidence to try to feed him again. She called me just before I left the store to thank me. Her cat, Pumpkin , had eaten. He was feeling better.

When I went to the car, Linda helped me clear the windows. It was warmer than when I went to work. Also the driving was easier. Yay.

2/3 Dr K, Flu gets me down, I sleep a lot, Luke is sick too

I couldn't sleep last night. I was cold and then hot and then cold. My blankets went on and off.

I ached all over and etc. Thank God for Ocillio.

I got up in time for my appointment with Dr K . I hoped that Luke would drive me, but he was sick as well. My morning routine was cut dramatically. I didn't feel like doing Hatha Yoga, and I didn't want breakfast (can you believe) I got there on time.

Dr K told me that my skin was very hot and that with a fever you don't want to expose others (no NM) ; especially kids (no Btown) I'm so exhausted that I don't even care. After my experience with HiNi, that isn't a happy feeling for me to have. Dr K's daughter just had the same thing. Is that a comfort to me? Kind of. I just don't want to get really sick again.

I got home and just sat down on the sofa, covered up and fell asleep. So that 's what I did most of the day, I read a little and slept a lot. I didn't really want to eat or drink. Luke insisted on going out. So, I asked him for coke.

Tonight. I felt a little better, which encouraged me. My head aches and I'm still sick to the stomach. But, the worst is that scary feeling of exhaustion when it's hard to think about standing up. I pray that I have more energy tomorrow.

Luke let Greyling in . He thought she would cheer me up and she did make me smile. She ate and then wanted to go out again. She climbed up our huge tree and I couldn't imagine how she'd get down. Like the fairy princess that she is, she likes to be up high. And she got down easily. What a cat.

1/31, 2/1, 2 Sun NM, Dinner, 2/1 Med Class, Mindy 2/2 Hair, Hatha

I'm not ready to go to church again. I'm not sure why. I'm contemplating. Some people who know me very well, think that my heart is with yoga--not just the exercises. Yoga has been a serious part of my spiritual journey since I was very young. So . . . .I was able to get my exercises done.

NM was quiet. Matt and I worked and did well. A young man came in. He was deaf and had problems. I went to the back to get some $$$ for him. I knew it wasn't the best idea. He was with a normal guy who refused to talk. He went back to check out Tambra's room which is now locked. I don't know. When I gave the $$$ to the kid, he made a loving gesture. I was touched.

But I won't do it again.

We had dinner at Bobby and Em's. We came late, but I was able to present her with soup. She loves my soup. I used a new bullion cube. Bobby was nice enough to pick up salads for us. It's hard for him. Em is a vegetarian, Luke and I don't eat beef , don't even ask about the others. We ate simple salads with a little protein. It was good for us. I felt cold. I put it out of my mind. It's always fun to hang out with the kids. They are funny and make us laugh.

Bobby took pictures of "the" painting, and of Luke and I with the painting. Tomorrow Em will JPEG the pictures to Daren who is in charge of the charity event. My painting inspired by Luke's music. So exciting.

I was cold. And extra tired. But I ignored the symptoms.

2/1 The meditation class is coming together in a great way. I feel so good after class. I love all the students because they have quiet spirits. I used a reading from the Gita. The essence was: We are all compelled to act, acting without expectation leads to the divine realization. Happiness.

We had dinner with Em at the Turkish place. The food was good. Like so many restaurants, they are struggling. Heera's has already closed. Aww.

2/2 Woke up and had breakfast. I knew I was tired. I had a hair appointment, which I usually love. Not today. I started getting sick with nausea, fever and etc. I didn't realize until Eunice was part way through my color that I was really sick.

I called Luke and asked him to help me canacel my class. Jahana asked me to teach anyway because they are having a sale and several new students signed up.

I asked Bapuji for grace and to be with me. MKate had made other plans but was nice enough to cancel so that she could help me.

Lots of new people. My watch stopped and I couldn't time the class . A woman came with her autistic son, didn't tell me or ask me. He created stress and with the new people --well I just grateful that Bapuji was with me.

1/29,30 NM, Painting: L plays detective, Movie Night

1/29 The key memory for Friday was working on the painting. It's almost finished and I did what I hoped I'd do rather what I have done in the past. I gave it my all. I could have said, "Good enough and the end." But I got myself into the kitchen for water and brushes and I worked and worked until my back hurt. Now I'm am truely bringing out my vision and I probably only have another few hours to say everything I want to say on this canvass.

1/30 Luke talked to Bill (the older gentleman who calls us in the night. It seems that AT&T cannot find a problem. They are not being woken up in the middle of the night. (More than once sometimes) Bill's sister seems to have our phone number. So when he calls her at odd times, I mean he's 90 something, it's understandable.

Luke wants to figure out the mystery himself. (AT&T isn't interested ) We got in the car and tried to follow the clues that Bill gave us. Finally we found an address that seemed like what Bill was describing ( I couldn't have done it) He's a natural detective. He got out of the car and ring the door bell, no one was home. Her neighbor wasn't home either. We'll go back.

Movie night. I wanted to see Tooth Fairy. Luke owes me because I let him take the lead in our home reconstruction. But MKate didn't want to see it either, so I gave in. We ate at Boston Chicken. Very good for the diet. We didn't get into our first choice movie. Another couple left and we have had to do that in the past. But . . . yay. There was another movie we all wanted to see, "The Young Victoria." It was romantic and it showed the politcial climate of the time. I didn't understand some of the mechinations but I loved the relationship. And I remember reading that this was Victoria and Albert had a life long love. So I'm glad we saw the movie before it disappeared.

1/28/10 Visit from . . . Chores

We start the morning with a visit from Miss Pumpkin and Miss Greyling, the fairy princess. Luke lets them in. I am surprised given his allergies and the fact that he had a bad cold--just a few days ago. They are so cute. They are also hungry. I make a plate for both to share--next time I'll give them both their own dish. They wander around for awhile, then want to play outside again.

Well, the owners are not going to keep the kittens inside. I accept that. I'll feed them when they come to eat. Luke and I will be co-pet parents. Anyway that's what's happening now. From a yogic point of view the word is surrender. The kittens don't belong to me and I can't keep them full time in my home because of allergies. So . . .

After lunch, I got for chores. I have to drop off Luke's photo at Mindful Movement. We are doing a joint program on Feb 20. That will give us some time. We do Hatha and classical music, not meditation. After I finish the painting and my bio, I'll get to a design for the class.

I am not pleased with how I presented the class to the news letter. Everyone on Miriam's list will see this. I should have put more work into the presentation. I am resolved to improve.

More chores. In and out of the house.

1/26-27/10 Dr Logan: Bear Picnic in Btown

Yesterday Mike and Aaron came to work on the meditation room. I have been worried about a construction problem with the fire place and bookcase. I knew that one side would be different than the other and that it would bother me terribly. However, I didn't mention it to Mike. They worked and the fireplace doesn't look right to me. Why oh why didn't I mention the problem right away. Errg. Willow. Why?

But tomorrow is another day. And I'll mention it to Mike the next time he comes. It will be all right. (I hope)

I had my appointment with Dr Logan. No wonder I'm tired. It's my lungs again. But he's hopeful that if I rest and take what he gave me--daily--that I'll bounce back as always.

I came home tired. It was cold and I really didn't want to teach class. Not to worry, no one came. So MKate and I went home. I do need to work on building the class but I won't think about it today.

1/27 Last night the phone rang at 5:20 a.m. What? I'm telling you the truth. Our 90 year old Mr Jones calls his sister, Mary Shapiro, that early. We have the same phone number. Really. And AT&T created this mess. Bad AT&T. Luke tried to talk with a tech and with a manager. We had to leave for Btown before it was settled, but had high hopes.

Luke and I go to Dr K (chiropractor). I tell him about my appoint with Dr Logan. He worked on my back behind the lung area and on my neck--and quess what--I felt better.

Luke and I came home. Had mushroom soup with corn for lunch. Delicious. The weather was perfect for a drive. We are tired from being woken up so early. Mr Jones can take a nap. We can't. We talk about our life and getting to work on our den and tax items tomorrow. If only.

Luke goes into the school to pick up Xavier. He's a good looking kid. He could model. He's in a mellow mood. Yay. He wants to be sure that we brought our bears for the bear picnic. I tell X that after homework, we have to use our time for the Bear Picnic--not games.

And for the first time, X gets right to his homework. He tells Luke about another assignment that Rain didn't know about. They have fun doing the work. Then X and I get busy with the Bears. While they are working, I take all the Bears and arrange them on the sofa. I know that X will love it because of the way he arranges the bears around his bed. X brings toy food--pizza, ice cream, a drink and a chocoate chip cookie. We arrange the favored bears so they can eat and be photographed. I take some photos and X takes some photos. We have the best time. X doesn't ask to play video games even once.

Rain calls and tells me that the pizza will come soon. I get up and start cutting up carrots (according to what X wanted for the people picnic.)

Ryan and Rain come home with Violet. She's quiet and tired. We serve the food and eat quietly together. The kids eat at their little table in the dining room. Quietly. V doesn't eat much. When it's clear that she'd done eating, she says "What did you bring me, Grandma," I bring out a little candy bar and a little pack of gummies for the health store.

Everyone knew that we couldn't stay long because Luke had a rehearsal to get back to. My philosophy is that even an hour with someone you love is worth days and days. If you only have a hour make the most of it. It's the way Baba taught meditation. He's say again and again, do a few minutes but put your heart and soul and all your attention on those few minutes. And he was so right.

We left for Indy feeling great. Knowing that we had bonded with our Btown family.

Yes. I ate a lot of chocolate. I was so tired. So tired. The driving weather was not ideal. A light snow fell, making the roads a little slick and the visability not ideal. Chocolate is what my mom went for when she had to drive tired and I do the same.

A lot of scary, wobbly trucks bouncing around. Thank you so much God for a safe trip home.

Too tired to work on my painting. It's a time when I need my best focus and attention.

1/25/10 Med Class, lunch w MK, Hands on Spirituality

A little late for class. Should not do this again. However, Prem came and brought peace into the classroom. The whole class flowed together and the spirit of grace was present. A lot of peace. Students had experiences.

After class, Cheryl shared her experiences with Willow. I'm interested in Willow's progress. It's fun to see her coming into her own. Just when her mom was wondering what to do with her amazing daughter. At Willow's age it's best to be taught by a parent. Her mom is open to the Shakti. She's ready to transform herself and to support Willow's transformation. It's so great.

After class, MKate came back to chez Shapiro for lunch. We fixed salmon salad with fried onions and apples.

After lunch MKate went to work and I got some laundry done. Also, I studied the painting. Yes, I could leave it as is and it would be o.k. but to bring it to the next level will require more contemplation and more delicate work.

At 5:30, MKate and I went to Butler to teach the Hands on Spirituality class. Paula is the real deal. She meditates and does her own practices. The class is always in a great state to begin with. This class was no exception. The room is dark and the candle already lit.

Velma comes to create a deeper state for the students. People have a certain vibration. You can see it. Once they have a spiritual awakening --meet a great Saint like Prem --they just exude "that" energy.

The class was uplifting for all. The students kept thanking us. Yay.

I did a reading from the Gita. The more authentic I am the higher the energy in the class.

1/24/10 Wow-time flies

I can't believe that I haven't written for so many days--four days. I pledged to myself that if I only had time for one sentence that I'd do that--everyday. But I haven't this time. I got very involved in the destiny of the kittens. Who would care for them? What would be in their best interest.

When Julio (14 year old owner of Pumpkin) came to my door looking for his kittens--I was stunned. How could this be? Who would let two little kittens run free and be hungry in the cold winter. I decided to take a breath and also to take his phone number. I didn't know where the moral/ethical rightness lay. I decided to pray and ask for divine guidance. If you listen, you'll always get an answer. (You might not like it.)

That night I had a clear dream of Pumpkin (now living with another family. A family that I deemed perfect. They loved Pumpkin and would give her a perfect home.) In my dream, Pumpkin told me that he wanted to come home. (He told me a few things that aren't for sharing but he wanted to come home and that was clear)

1/23 I told Pumpkin's new family that Julio had come looking for his kitten. They decided to bring the kitten back. When Pumpkin came back, I called Julio. He's only 14 years old, but he's a very sweet person. A loving person. You can see it. He picked up his kitten --called Zoey--and hugged her. He told her that he loved her and I believe he does. He'll be a better, more responsible pet owner now.

That night MKate met Luke and I at the ICO Chamber Conversations Concert at the Historical Museum. (She was coming from a grandson basket ball game and was a little late.) Since Luke is Concert Master of the orchestra, we have to be on time.

It was an amazing concert.

Afterwards, MKate, Luke and I had dinner at Ocean World--perfect for dieting. We enjoyed a low cal fish dinner that was delicious. And fun.

1/24 I was excited this morning. Em gave Luke an amazing gift--great tickets to the Colts/Jets game. Ry was coming in from B town to enjoy this game with Luke. We had breakfast together at La Peep. Ry is always fun. We had the best waitress even. She noticed everything and quietly met all our needs for a great breakfast.

I ate 1/2 my meal and brought packed the other for lunch at NM.

Yes. I was a little scared. What if the theives came back. I prayed and asked for extra grace.

Sure enough at 4 p.m. near closing (when the theives came last time) Linda came to the front to talk to Matt and I, then Melissa came for milk that she needed for a recipe, then Kay, then MKate. So there I was surrounded by grace and the answer to my prayers.

I took Em and Nicole to dinner. Luke joined us. We had Thai food. Yummmm.

1/19/10 Grayling and me, Kittens, Hatha Class

This a.m. I got up and took a shower. Graying came into the bathroom to keep me company. She loved seeing the shower drops drip down the glass doors. When I dried my hair and got ready for the day, she sat in the sink and purred. I showed her Ganesh's photo, and she really looked.

I decided to get work done in the house, putting away the christmas ornaments, and other christmas decorations. I organzied the kids toys so they can enjoy them more.

Without getting into it, because it makes me sad, Graying has a home now. It's what I asked God for, so I shouldn't complain. I hope they take good care of her and respect her as a child of God. At least I know that Pumpkin (who will have a different name) has a great home. I know the cat kid is very happy. So, I'm happy for her.

I picked up MKate for hatha yoga, April was there as well. When it's just the three of us, all with a relationship to a yogic Saint, the classes are like a deep, deep meditation. l love them.

The theme of the class was from Eknath Eswaran. He's talking about how to control the mind. How to focus and in doing that improve all your relationships.

Good bye kittens. Have a good life sweeties.

1/17-18/10 NM, Din w Em & fam, Med class , KITTENS

It's sunday and we aren't going to try a new church. I hurt myself doing splits (which I know I should give up, but can't seem to) Instead I say my prayers deeply and have time for Hatha Yoga. Now this is strange although I'm having real trouble walking, I can do all my hatha. Strange.

I am walking very slow and have the kittens. Pumpkin is much more bouncy than Greyling. I'm glad that it's Pumpkin that's getting a new home. I need a more kaptha cat. I do get to work on time. I can't jump around and show customers where to find things, but I can help them. And I'm able to do the register. MKate handles the walking part. Some of my old friends come in and that's what makes the job fun.

We have dinner with Em and Bobby, Jennifer comes. We eat at Puccini's. I have a salad and a small portion of pasta. The conversation is fun, as always. Jennifer says that she'll come to see my cats before Pumpkin goes to his new home. But, she doesn't.

1/18 Today Nicole is picking up the kittens --at 7 a.m. I don't even open my eyes before 8:30. Luke is willing but he gets up so early to be ready. By the time I'm awake, the kittens are at the vet. Nicole calls to say that their surgery went well and that they are healthy kittens. She will bring them home at 5:30. Kris and Dana will come right away and pick up Pumpkin. I'm a little sad that the kittens will be separated. But at least I know that Pumpkin will have a loving home.

Meditation class went well. I can't explain. I almost don't have to do anything. I meditate myself. The grace is there. The actual spirit of God is there. I feel so fortunate to be part of it. The new student , Sheryl is deep and fits in perfectly. I hope that she's able to share with her crystal child.

MKate came over for lunch to help me get ready for the kittens. I worry that they will be in pain. Then she goes to work and Luke and I take our conversation ride. We are determined to get up to speed cell phone wise and to put our home in the shape we want it to be in.

After our ride, we come home and wait for the kittens. MKate promises to come over as soon as the kittens come home. And she does. When they come over, Kris and Dana like Pumpkin and he likes them. I'm so happy. From poor, scared throw aways, out in the cold and hungry Pumpkin will be someone's special pet. I'm sad for the kittens because they'll be separated but . . . life is a coming together and a moving apart.

Oh yes. We thought that Pumpkin was male, but no . . . she's a little girl. And both kittens were neutered. I quess it's what Luke and I thought to begin with. A family had two kittens. They took care of them until they lost their home. Then, they left the kittens behind, hoping that they'd find a good home. And Pumpkin did.

I'd like to keep Greyling, the fairy Princess, but you know, Jen and Xander have allergies. I want them to be welcome in my home. I'm going to pray, pray, pray. I'm going to hope that Greyling finds a good home as well.

MKate had dinner with us. It was fun to cook together.

I spent the rest of the evening painting. I like what's happening but . . . I have to finish.

1/14-15/10 NM , Purses, Pasta and salad ,KITTENSS

O.K. Dan and Daniel came at a decent time--11:30 rather than 10:30. Lucky me. Mike didn't come on time (yay) and they waited. More work got done. I have LIGHT in my bathroom. Lots of light. All I need and more.

I get to NM early to meet Cheryl. She is late which gives me the chance to meet a guy who is fighting weight and an addiction to carbs. He is suffering from stress and he and his wife are thinking about coming to a few of my yoga classes. They live in Avon so they'd have to drive for more than 30 min to get to Mindful Movement. We'll see.

I'm interested in my work with Cherl. Her daughter, Willow (my "stage" name) is a pure crystal child. I was awed when Cherl told me how Willow is responding to yoga. Cheryl is the perfect mom for this child. I'm amazed. They have started to pray at night. Willow did a perfect pranam. No one ever showed her how. Amazing. When Cheryl told me about Willow's flow into yoga, I was speechless. (which is unusual for me) I'm excited to see how Willow responds to her new vit program. Crystal kids can be a handful.

A nice flow at NM. People to work with. Yay.

MKate came over to help me with dinner. We put together a mix of chicken and sausage with onions and veggies (and a tiny bit of garlic, Luke doesn't like it) We enjoyed the dinner and watched Jeopardy with Luke. He loved dinner as well.

I was tired.

1/16/10 Em came over this a.m. to bring cat carriers from Nicole. Monday will be the big day. Everything will change for the kittens after they are neutered and treated by the vet. Nicole will take them. We have to get them ready.

Em had breakfast with us. We talked about a lot of things. She said something very touching. We mentioned our Long Term Care insurance. She said that she and Dan hoped that we'd live with them when we got old.

When I came downstairs (with wet hair), Em had let Greyling in. She was exploring. So cute. I was worrying about Pumpkin. Would he come by in time? Would he go missing for another week or so? Em saw him at the back door, where the kittens like to enter. Now they were both in the house. I was concerned. Would they use the litter box. Would they be scared? Was Pumpkin in good health? So many questions.

The kittens were fine in the downstairs bathroom. They prefered it to roaming the house, which may have scared them. Pumpkin eats. He eats the dry food and doesn't like Fancy Feast. Good taste Pumpkin. The dry food is organic for NM.

MKate came to help me with the kittens. She has a lot of experience and they know it.

Then we went to the mall. I hurt myself and was walking very slowly. Very. In a lot of pain and kind of scared as well. MKate had to return the purse that I got her for Chirstmas. It was beautiful but not right for her. We had fun as she picked out a new purse. And people watched.

The three musketers went out for dinner at Puccini's. Yum.

KITTENS RULE

1/14/10 Changes, B-town, Family and soup

After having to beg Ricky to do the smallest thing in our house, we are thrilled that Mike and his team --the two Dan's --come and get things done. They do them well and they aren't finished until you're pleased and satisfied. They worked in my bathroom, it will be done tomorrow, and the out dated meditation room. Luke and I are excited. Very.

We got on the road a little bit later than we hoped, but within reason. The weather was warm and al most spring like. OMG. I didn't have to wear a coat. After the frigid days we've had , this was weather heaven.

Luke went inside the school to pick up Xavier. He's growing up and so much more co operative. Also capable. we were worried that we couldn't attach X's car seat. He did it in a sec. So confident. At home he did all his homework without a word. He ate one small candy and a few apple slices. Then came the big change. After homework, X put on his X11 game--Bat Man Leggo. When it was time to stop playing and get ready for dinner out, I gave X five minutes to finish up. In five he closed the game and the t.v. set. A first. Oh my. He's growing up.

We went to "Up Town." Yummy but expensive. I love their black bean spicey soup. I also had a chicken and salsa wrap. I felt it was diet friendly. Hopefully.

We had good conversation and fun. X brought toys and played nicely. Violet is so very tired at this time of night. She liked the Ruby (of Max and Ruby fame) doll that I brought her. But would have rather had the Max doll because he's the little bro and she's the little sis. She has a new friend at day care. Anyway, she did her best although she was very tired. She did eat some of her dinner and that was very good.

I was tired on the way home. I had strong tea in the restaurant, so I could drive home. Still I was tired and had to really concentrate. There was a lot of traffic on 465. I was so, so tired.

Through grace we got home safe.

I'm happy that my fav show is on tonight, "Project Runway," and after the Models show. I have to get right up after the show and jump into action. Nothing extra. I hope.

1/12 & 13/10 Pain scars, Hatha: Dr K, NM, ART

As I was getting ready for Hatha Yoga time, I heard a knock at the door. I wasn't dressed . Luke wasn't dressed. Usually we wouldn't answer an unexpected knock. Luke put on clothes and went down. I thought he should. It was Mike and Dan. OMG. I mean we were used to Ricky who promises and doesn't come. They were here. I got excited and gave up my hatha to go down and talk with them about our kitchen remodel.

Oh yes. Ideas were flying. I'm learning from t.v. what not to do and I can say no even to experts.

But that wasn't the interesting thing about the a.m. of the 12th. We sat at the table and talked. Dan began to talk about a terrible time in his life when he was severely burned. He almost died but he didn't. He fought through. I want to film his story. Then Mike shared about his terrible burn experience. I want to film his story as well. People should know you can suffer and yet survive. It's a metaphor for the suffering that everyone goes through in life--not just physical but mental and spiritual as well.

Then we had Hatha class. It was small. I'm hoping the obstacles to the growth of this class are removed and that's what I'm praying for. However, Baba used to say that you don't teach for others. You teach so you can grow. He said that if one person comes--you should teach. What's the dif if thousands come. If one person is uplifted--that changes not just that person, but also everyone that touches their life and also the world around them. Baba used to say that if you cut a branch off a tree it affects the whole world.

O.K. 1/13

This a.m. I got up earlier than usual so that I could do Hatha for myself. I missed 2 mornings.

Luke woke me up and I jumped into it. I did have time for 20 min of Hatha.

Dr K worked hard on me. I felt a lot better. He wants me to do the exercise that he gave me. I said that i'd do the exercise. It would only take 5 min in the evening. Yet again and again, I don't do it. Five minutes. Five.

I went to work. First the bank. Then the register. Sometimes I really feel inspired at the register. I was able to help a few customers and that felt good as well. Linda told me that she doesn't think Pumpkin has a health issue. I pray.

Luke called me to say that both kittens came by for food and love. Yay.

Tonight, I played a little and ate a little. Then I worked on the painting. When I picked up my brush I wanted to put the thing in the basement or paint over it. And those are the good things I wanted to do. So I thought about Bapuji with my little painting in his hands, turning it over and over. Looking at the back of the painting. I wrote on the canvass back--I love you Bapuji with a red heart. And he touched the red heart again and again. Maybe he wants me to paint from my heart.

So tonight, I came from the heart and didn't think. I can't explain. When I was utterly tired, I stopped. And you know what - - - this terribly difficult piece is coming together. A miracle.

1/11/10 call from Judy/ meditation class/ CATS are back

Just as I'm ending my Gita study, I get a call from Judy B. She wants to share a book that we've been talking about for awhile. The author is a Kali shaman, who was chosen in his native india at age 9 years. Judy went to California to study with him and found her inner Kali--her strong, spiritual voice. He talks a lot about the meaning of animals in our lives and how to spiritualize the material. So I see this is the book for me. I was happy to order a copy. It ended up that Judy had 2 books and is sending me her spare. I'm looking forward to reading it.

Judy shared some of her experiences with Amma. They were truly amazing, but not for me to share.

At the end of the summer, my last morning with Bapuji this year, most of the devotees went to a yajna. But Bapuji kept Luke and I and another couple with him. The woman was a devotee of Amma. I've read books on Amma which are fascinating and a have a piece of her sari covering my Gita. After darshan, we had breakfast in Nayna's kitchen. The woman gave me the bracelet that Amma gave to her. Now Judy has suggested that Luke and I should visit Amma this summer. Hummm.

In her book, Amma talks about healing. Maybe that's how my healing miracle will come to me.

Finally I had to hang up and get ready for class. Talking to Judy was satsang and it put me in a very peaceful state for class. We had a new student. She's naturally pita, so I was surprised when she went into a deep meditation and supported the class. The class was spiritual silk. I slipped into a deep meditation. Luckily, Luke made a sound and brought me back so I could end the class.

After class, the new student came up and asked me a question. It turns out that her daughter is Willow, my secret name. So there's a bond. Willow is a crystal child, very amazing and very difficult to raise . I'm excited to work with Cheryl on creating a nurturing atmosphere for Willow to be all she can be.

MKate came over for lunch. She was going to help me find my kittens. We decided to eat and then drive around looking for the kittens. Luke went into the house first and he yelled out--it's the kittens, they're here. We were so excited. Luke brought the kittens in the house right away. Greyling loves him and kissed his nose right away. Pumpkin looks a little thin. I'm worried.

They ate outside. Pumpkin ate a few bites and then went for a drink. He's thirsty all the time. That worries me. Greyling ate the whole thing herself. It was a lot of food. She ate a whole can of Fancy Feast with 1/2 cup of crunchies and two vits. She was hungry poor kid.

The 18th is their day to visit the vet. I hope that Pumpkin is healthy. Luke and I have to have the kittens ready for surgery at 7:00 a.m. on the 18th which means that we have to keep them in the house. Somehow. God will really have to be behind this.

I spent the rest of the day doing house things--laundry and etc. It's nice to get chores done. I'm looking forward to organizing the house. We're starting next week.

1/10/20 NM, MKate's cast party

Got to NM to find a mess. Matt was really sick with a bad headache and etc. The front register was broken, leaving us with only the 2nd register. This meant that the person checking people out had to go between register 2 and register 1 --for every sale. Even for a person in perfect health it would have been a long day. For me the extra walking was very hard, and very tiring.

By the time the day was over, I was exhausted. The day went well, but I was not ready to go to the party.

MKate has spent the past month getting ready for the store Christmas Party which always takes place in January. I wasn't about to miss it.

I rested until my ankle felt better and then Luke and I were off to party land. I got a cute large gift bag that held all the many pairs of socks. I put the gift certificate to MKate and Jeff's fav restaurant--Oakleys.

When I got to MKate and Jeff's house, people were already eating their salads. No problem. I ate two salads and was ready for the main dish right along with everyone else. I'm a rabbit.

The salad was yum with walnuts and dried cranberries.

The main dish was MKate's special herb rubbed fish with Jeff's pasta bake, and veggies. Lots of sweet, delicious carrots. I had a little ham as well for flavor. And I didn't go too far off my diet--if you don't count 2 glasses of white wine. This wine was really great.

MKate surprised everyone with a fun game. Everyone picked a number. Starting with 1 people got to choose a gift from a plastic tub. Gag gifts. If you didn't like your gift, you could force an exchange with someone else. A lot of fun.

Dessert was amazing. Key lime pie with home made whipped cream and vanilla ice cream. The best.

I presented the gifts to MKate. The shakti started to flow. You could see it. Three people in the room had Bapuji's darshan. The atmosphere heated up. People started laughing in that special way. Then Luke played his violin, which he never does at parties. He wanted to honor these very giving and very special people.

1/9/10 No Cats, Target, dinner/movie w Em & Bobby

Oh. Ohhhhh. No Kittens. I can't talk about it.

I got everything done this a.m.

I still needed a few things for tomorrow's party. I went to Target and was able to get all and stuff that Luke and I needed. I like Target. You can get what you need for a medium or even a small price. To me, Target is like an alien world. People coming and going. Up and down the isles. It's interesting. Faces intent on a mission.

I had to get home early. We were meeting Em and Bobby early for a nice dinner and a movie. We went to Kona Jack's in Carmel. I love the dark atmosphere, the giant fish tank and the feeling of affluence. Everyone like their meal. The impskies chose mine. I need to listen to those angelites and give them strength.

We went to "It's Complicated. " with Meryl Streep, Steven Martin and Alec Baldwin (all the roles were perfectly acted). Alec Baldwin was the best. I couldn't believe the richness of his interpretation. GO see this movie.

Now I'm tired. Very.

1/8/09 Pancakes w B and K-NM- Cats-Art

I got all my hatha done by 11:00. Kevin and Becky had to be on time because they have to leave for Chicago. We go . . . yes . . . to the Pancake House. And there Becky upholds tradition by ordering chocolate chip pancakes with extra butter. Kevin and I order the Sunrise Special but with pancakes and not toast. The coffee is hot and good and the waitress is really good. Everything including catsup gets on our table in time. It's a good ending for a happy visit.

We don't see Greyling and we are all disappointed. I haven't seen Pumpkin in a long time. I'm thinking about the lesson. Everyone who said they might give her a home has backed out. Again the lesson.

In the bank, things go quickly. It's not crowded. Back at the store, I get to work on the Solgar order. I'm working fast to finish as much as possible before I have to leave. MKate asked me to leave at 6 instead of 5--that worked for the work that had to be done. And Luke didn't mind--much. Before I leave a customer comes in with similar skin outbreaks like the kind I have. I felt bad for him and stayed to help him out. He's just gone through a nasty, painful divorce which brought on his rashes and eczema. I invite him to my yoga classes which are so relaxing. He's from India (he's a shik) and he takes a flyer. I think he'll really come to class. Sometimes, people say they'll come. They swear they will and they don't. But . . . I think that he will. Time will tell.

At home, I find out that I have no more time. I'll have to finish the art project NOW. Well tomorrow.

1/7/10 SNOWED IN. YAY.

I looked out the window and snow was falling and falling and falling. Luke and I decided not to go to Btown with Becky and Kevin. I had a feeling that MKate was right about my car. Once she pointed it out, I heard a grumble in the car and felt it shaking. Well, it was only shaking a little, but I didn't want a sudden break down on the road to or worse--from B town.

The kids came over for bruch. Luke made his special eggs and coffee. I was the beneficiary of a great 2nd cup of coffee. We talked and had fun conversations. It's great to see Becky so happy in her life and with a loving and accepting husband. In many ways, she's a whole new daughter. She looks beautiful. Happiness does that.

After a while, they left for Btown. Luke took my car into the muffler shop. He was also in charge of getting heat for the cars and filling up my tank with gas. I mean it's cold. So cold. Are we in Alaska or what? I haven't seen Pumpkin for three days and now I haven't seen Greyling. Where are they I worry?

About three, Greyling shows up again. I can't open the darn back door and she's waiting. I ask her to come around front and then I go fix her food. She dry food is not to be found. I open a can of wet food and add . . . dog food. She won't be able to eat it. (the two dog treats, she'll eat the Fancy Feast with no problem). When I get to the door, she is scared by a snow plow truck and runs off without eating. I feel bad, but what can I do.

I am able to straighten up the house, but Luke and I have a lot of work to do. Getting rid of what we don't use --so someone else can take advantage of it. And organizing what we do want.

I'm excited.

Tomorrow the kids go home to the East. Now, Luke is officially on sabatical. Here's what I think. If we're going to accomplish anything during this time, we have to make a plan and keep to it. ( more or less).

Our late friend, Phillip, was a famous therapist. He gave me a piece of advice. "Don't let anything be your master. Stay with a shedule but don't let it run you." Well those aren't his words. But those are his thoughts. I was so anal about my Hatha Yoga, as though I'd actually die if I didn't do my asanas every single morning of my life. You know, he was right. Gosh, I haven't thought of Phillip in years. We visited him a few times. I think he lived in Springfield.

missed 5-6/10 visit with Becky and Kevin

Tue 1/5/10 Went to breakfast with Becky and Kevin. Le Peep. The coffee was good. We talked about fur people and told jokes. It was fun.

When I am with my kids, I learn a lot of lessons about accepting humans as they are. And I'm sure that they learn the same with me. You can't grow if you hang around people who are just like you.

Sometimes, I'm sharp with people who push my buttons. With adult kids that isn't cool. At least not to me. So I step back and think and learn. Maybe I should do this more.

In the New Year, I want to grow into a deeper , calmer, more spiritual person. Come closer to God and the Saints.

Becky and Kevin have three cats. They just added a huge kitten. He weighs 13 lbs and growing. So far they are living in different states--Kevin in Ohio and Becky in New Jersey, but they are hoping to join forces soon. Then the 3 cats will have to learn to tolerate each other as house mates.

My outdoor cat, Greyling, came to call. When we came home from breakfast, she was on the roof trying to get into the house. Becky and Luke let her in an upstairs window. She loves being in the house and it's a shame that we can't bring her into the family. She and Becky got on like old friends. Greyling is so sweet and beautiful. I hope that I can find a home for her soon. The weather is getting sooo cold. She deserves her own family.

I taught class. Two new students. Very sweet. A young dancer and her husband. They live in Indy but still go to I.U. so they can't become regular members of the class. Maybe we'll see them now and again.

Becky and Kevin cooked dinner for Em and Bobby.

1/6/10 Getting colder. Greyling comes to eat in the afternoon, but not after. She usually eats twice.

I go to Dr K. He works on me for what seems like a long time. I've had some sore places in my back. Who knows.

Jessica (new at NM) was bitten by a spider. She couldn't be at work. I was supposed to go in early, but Kay knew that my daughter was in town for only a short while. She covered for me so Becky, Kevin and I could have lunch and visit.

Becky and I had fun. We redecorated a room in Durga's (on line pet)mansion. And mostly laughed. I'm glad to have someone to share Pet Society with.

I went to work late and stayed a bit later as well. When I came home, Em was here. I had most of dinner from Boston Chicken. I still wanted to make veggies and some veggie dishes for Em and Becky who are vegetarian. The dinner turned out well. Everyone had enough to eat. We laughed and told jokes. We talked about old times.

I haven't seen Pumpkin in days. Greyling didn't show up for her evening meal. I hope that she'll come by tomorrow. Kris and Dana may take her. I hope. Jahana also said that she might take the one kitty. You notice that I've given up looking for a home for both together.

1/4/09 Cold. Kittens. Conversation. Family dinner

Usually our bedroom is warm and I kick off my covers in the middle of the night. Tonight the air was frigid. I worry about the kittens. I pray that they find a way to keep warm. I have two beds for them but I don't think they use them.

I get ready for the morning. No time for my Hatha. It's the first meditation class since the holidays. I have chosen a reading from Eknath Eswaran. It's about what you desire and what your deepest desires will bring to you. The key word is detachment. It goes along with my Gita reading --you are entitled to work, but not to the fruits. Here too the key word is detachment.

The class settles me in a deep and peaceful way.

MKate comes for lunch. She sees the kittens playing near a backyard barn. I am relieved. They made it through the night and MKate (who knows almost everything) doesn't think that Greyling is pregnant. Thank God. I make Cambell's chicken soup to warm us up. Then I fixed tuna melts with Eunices sweet pickle slices and a slice of Swiss. So the kittens were eating wet food. MKate and I were eating warm soup and tuna melts. Luke ate in the car.

Then Luke and I went off for our Conversation Ride. Every marriage needs a time to talk about hot subjects and then . . . . not talk them to death afterwards. That's where trust in God and each other comes in, and that's where taking the witness position becomes your best friend. We talk about our cell phone issues. Luke doesn't like technology. I used to be mad at him. Lately I've been giving him the right not to like carrying a cell phone. I think he has to do it out of respect for me and for himself as well. But I can understand.

OK. We're in a department store. I'm in one section and he's in another. I want to show him something or to tell him that I'll be in a dressing room. He isn't carrying his cell phone so it gets messy and time consuming and tense.

We were going to do chores but it's so cold that we didn't feel up to it. We went home to rest a little. Kevin called to say that he and Becky were close to Indy. Em and Bobby decided to meet us at Amber Indian at 7 pm, and wait for Kev and Becky.

By the time Luke and I got to the restaurant, the others were there laughing and having fun. We love Amber Indian. I've found that I can eat Tandore shrimp and stay with my diet (as long as I eat small amounts of rice and etc). This time, Kev ordered the most fattening appetizer possible--batter dipped and deep fried onions and veggies. I has some but not too much. I think I'll be ok on the scale tomorrow.

We laughed and told jokes and talked mostly about fun things. I told the Pope/Rabbi joke that Matt told me. I messed it up again, but people find that funnier than the original joke AND I was able to continue on.

1/3/10 NMarket, Matt, and Dinner w Bobby and Em

I got my whole a.m. rountine done. I wasn't happy at the scale. After meeting my first goal just before New Years Eve, the impskies won and jumped off the diving board of eating--pizza, chocolate. I'm proud that I got on the scale this a.m. I knew I wouldn't be happy, but ok, I did it and there was no doubt who would be in charge today.

I was happy to get to NMarket. I knew that the weather would keep some people away. I would stay home myself. But I came in the door ready to play. One of my old yoga students, Mary, from St L's came in. She had a lot of problems. One was similar leg cramps to those Luke had. I put her on some of the nutrients that he takes. She didn't know that Luke and I left St L's. She was surprised to hear it, but happy for us that we were going in a direction that was better for us.

Matt and I also had some very, very strange customers. One woman came in for hair nutrients. And yes, her hair was stringy. She has been sick, but she's strange. Very. Matt helped her. She wasted all his time and then even gave back the expensive samples he gave her. She ran for it, taking her stringy hair with her.

The other super strange thing that happened was a customer that barely speaks. He comes in most every Sunday. Today he stopped between Matt and my register. He began a long monologue. We did not know what he was trying to bring out. He asked us if we remembered what he wore last Sunday or the kind of bag we gave him. Honestly, I was a little scared and began to pray. In the end, all this man wanted was to exchange his Vit B -1 with another vit B that was only 5 cents more expensive. Also, he did not have his vit B-1 in his car as he thought, so he had to drive home (not close by) to get it.

At the end of the day, Matt and I made a little over $1,000, which for this weather rocked.

Luke and I met Em, Bobby and Evan for dinner at Puccinis. I did very well. I got herbal tea, followed by a chicken salad and a child's portion of pasta under tomato sauce. We had fun as always. It was fun to hear about the trip to California. They saw a lot of interesting sights and ate in the same restaurant as two stars (not big ones and I've already forgotten both their names.) After dinner, Bobby and Evan went home. Em stayed for a few more minutes and I told her the joke that Matt shared with me. It's a very, very funny joke about the Pope and a Rabbi. Before I started Em and Luke were joking that I'd forget the punch line. I JUST hear this joke and I practiced in the car. I was sure I'd remember it. What do you think. Just when I was going along great--I forgot the punch line. Em started to laugh. But I got back on the horse, and managed to tell it all. Luke and Em laughed so I guess I did a good job.

1/2/10 Cats, Shopping, and Movies

This morning I went looking for the cats. It's bitter cold out and I wanted to fix their house with more straw and to feed them wet food and coconut oil to help them weather the cold. Pumpkin was waiting for me on the porch. I went in to fix his food. He went to get Greyling. He's such an amazing cat. He stood aside and let Greyling eat her fill. She is the most beautiful cat. Her fur gets more and more interesting color wise.

After breakfast, I went shopping. OMG it's cold. Frigid. I decided to go to one place only. We needed staples like mayo and catsup. So I chose Target. And yes I got everything I needed. I'll have to get Veronie's book on Monday.

Coming out of Target it was so terribly cold. I thought, how grateful am I that I have a warm car and a warm, comfortable house. Thank you, God.

MKate came over early to help create a warm space for the kittens. She had a cat matress filled with seeds that hold the warmth. One of my favorite things about MKate is that she loves animals. She cares. It's not just words. And she may have found a place for the kitties to live more safely. I guess I'm happy for them. But really not. They are such amazing pets--so sweet and intelligent and loving and beautiful. Please God bring them a real home.

While MKate fixed the heated water bowl for the birds and the cats, I made the pop corn treat.

We had dinner at Noodles. Yummm. Then we went to the movie theatre and oh no. There was no room at the Inn. The theatre was crowded and the shows we would have seen were filled.

So we went to the video store and bought a few fun videos.

1/1/10 Breakfast w Rain and co, Super hero;s w Xavier

Yesterday Luke and I drove to Btown. The weather which could have been snowy was sunny, dry and perfect.

We met Rain, Ry, Xavier and Violet at Max's Pizza, Bloomington. Max's had a New Years Eve party for littles. There was a band just for kids, but nice for adults as well. We sat with some of Rain's friends and their littles. There were kids that Xavier knew in pre-school. Valerie was the partner in crime with Xavier in their pre-school days. Her little sister, Annabella is Val's little sis. She's 4 and loves Violet and they play so well together. It's interesting how early the mother instinct comes up in little girls.

After the kids party, Xavier went to another party. Violet was tired and went up to bed. After she was asleep, Rain and Ry had champagne and we watched one of our old fav's, "Dr Detroit." Strange that Luke and I talked about that movie on the ride up to B town, and said how we'd love to see it again.

Okay. Today. The first day of the new year. Our hotel was excellent. We want to stay there again. After showers, we met Rain and co at The Rencible Spoon. It was so crowded. Not many places were open. I was glad that they were opened for our celebration. Xavier was tired. He played games with Rain's phone and that seemed to settle him. But, he wouldn't give it up when asked. Rain let it go. I was glad. He was tired and needed to be settled. Violet seemed tired as well. She didn't fuss but she could have easily. I gave her 4 Bach Flower pastiles. Gummies always go over. With me as well.

The food was so yum. And the atmosphere as well. Such a wide variety of people. Interesting. A glow of creativity. Thier best is coffee. Fresh strong amazing coffee. A happy drink.

After breakfast we went to Rain's. I hung out with X, which sometimes means sitting with him while he plays viedo games. Well, games on the WII. Luke is usually in a big hurry to get home and work. Today he chilled and played scrabble with Rain. Violet watched Max and Ruby on t.v. with her daddy.

Peace and family love. What a blessing. What grace. A fab way to start 2010.