2/28 NM & My Hair, Dinner: Bobby cooks again! Yay!

I got up excited. My hair rocks. Dream hair I never thought I'd have. The only problem is that I can't take a shower. I just don't want to take a chance and get this gorgeous stuff wet before the 72 hours are up. I fill the sink with hot water and I wash the places on me that need daily washing. But . . . it will do.

Sadly I hate to miss my shower --at a time when I have a little cold. I believe a good scrub in hot water can get rid of germs.

I get to Nature's Market looking forward to Matt's reaction when he sees "La Hair." He loves it. Many customers comment favorably. Very. Matt's mom says that my hair is to die for and that she wishes she could silken her hair. I feel so happy about the reaction I'm getting. Chuck, our massage therapist says that I look 20 years younger. He felt like my kids did that my hair looked ikk before. I am so happy. This is one of my life-long dreams come true. I'm smiling and smiling.

Em and Bobby decide to have dinner at their house. Em tells me that they are ordering out. Instead, when we get to their house, Bobby was inspired to cook--because (some folks weren't able to come for dinner and he doesn't like those folks) Truthfully, it was nice--just having the family. There were six dishes on the table--Em, Bobby and the kids. I think the kids felt better as well. They were so sweet and we talked about real things. They didn't eat and jump up.

Em surprised me by starting dinner with a prayer and asked me to lead the prayer. I was so touched. We talked about a serious , awful situation at Jennifer's school. Two wealthy seniors did the unthinkable to a freshman. So awful. Then we talked about the early years. Fun times. Like when MKate and I took the Littles to a movie that we thought was about animals. Well it sort of was. Too bad it was pornographic. We were horrified and just prayed that the kids didn't know. Now, so many years later we all laughed.

What a happy, happy time. A blessing.

Matt had blessings as well. He got a promotion at work and his lamp drama was turned to his advantage when he got two fab lamps for the price of one.

2/25,26, 27 Cat leaps, Squirrel bounces , HAIR

2/25

Ok. It's true. When I don't write for a few days, I loose track of when something happened. I think it was Thur a.m. Even if I've shared this before, it's a wow story. I was looking out the window, watching the birds at the feeder. There was Greyling, The Fairy Princess. She bent her knees and leaped straight up. This feeder is high. She's still a kitten, and she jumped like an olympic athlete. She batted the bird. The bird got away but I was amazed.

We had a pleasant trip to B town. It was cute to see Luke and Xavier walking out of the school. When X gets in the car, he wants to tell me about his success in video games. At home, he didn't have much homework and we didn't push it. I turned off the wall switch and messed up the t.v. so he couldn't play. He was frustrated and ran around a little bit, but not too much. He couldn't figure out how to play his computor game or even watch t.v. He went upstairs, where Luke was having a nap, and wanted to watch t.v. I asked him to let Papa sleep, and he wouldn't. I said quietly that I was disappointed, and went down stairs. I was reading one of his new books when he came down. I read to him and he got quiet.

Rain and Ry came home with Violet. The kids and I went upstairs to play bear games. It was fun. Violet is so very and clear in her speech. She's so small that it makes everything she does seem extra cute.

After dinner, I watched Max and Ruby videos with the kids.

2/26 I was looking out the window when I saw a squirrel. He had climbed high and out onto a thin branch. You wouldn't think it could hold him. When the wind blew, the branch bounced up and down--like a circus act or a kid's ride. He was playing.

After work, MKate and I ate dinner at Chez Shapiro. Then, we went to an ICO concert. It took place in the Art Museum in their new film theatre. The orchestra played for a silent film. The score was written by a modern composer in the style of. My fav was a film by the great and amazing star, Harold LLoyd. After a serious injury to his hand, this man performed feats that were mind blowing. He created a sense of excitement that brought the audience to it's feet--for him and for our amazing ICO and Luke--concert master.

2/26 All my life I've been jealous of those women, mostly models , who have the magic silken hair. I don't. I do the best I can, and my hair looks o.k. but not magic. Em gave me a session with her hair dresser, Eric, who --in three short hours-- gave me silken hair. Model hair. The kind I've always wanted. I'm soooo excited.

2/24 Dr K, MKate's B-day. Cleaning,

I went for my adjustment. I was feeling pleased with myself. I had to wash my hair this a.m. which I would never choose to do on an early (for Ashley) out. I asked Luke (he wakes me up each a.m.) to wake me at 8:30 (early for me since HiNi) and I got right up. No fooling around and got into the shower. I got to it. Washed the mop and got ready for the day. I was out of the house on time. Yes. Perfect.

My adustment was good. Amy told more AJ (her little son) stories. AJ's dad took him to Walmart. AJ struck up a conversation with a man he met. He asked

, "Do you work here?" The man said no and AJ moved on. Shortly in the pastery section AJ saw a woman bringing out cakes and arrainging them on a shelf. AJ asked her, "Do you like to set out cakes?" He's so young, but he's wondering about the world around him. His last and funniest remark --I forgot. Opps. I knew I should have written it down.

Because I got to Dr. K's on time, I left the office with plenty of time to do the chores that I had to do. All got done and there were several. For some reason when I went to the bank there was no parking. It's unusual for the lot to be so crowded. I drove around a few times and wasn't having any luck. When a spot did open up, someone else got it. I thought about going home and banking next week. Then I thought, no . . . I can do this and imagined a spot opening up right where I wanted it. And when I drove around again, quess what ? the prime spot opened up. Right next to the door. Yes.

I went home to wait for MKate. I was taking her to breakfast for her B-day. (A late, Ashley sort of breakfast). We were supposed to meet at 2. For some reason I thought MK was going to call me when she got out of exercise class. She thought that I'd just be at Le Peep at 2. So I called her and had her give in my order.

Breakfast was delicious. My ham steak was moist and tender. Scrumptious. We had fun conversations. Then MK went to work and I went home to deep clean and reorder our home with Luke. We worked. We really worked. Putting things in the 3 piles: give away, throw out and keep, but put away neatly in it's own special place.

At 7 we were fried and stopped for the night feeling good .

2/22-23 Med class, Evan's game: 23 Cleaning, Hatha

2/22 The students in meditation class are going into deep states. There is no doubt that Bapuji and the great beings join us. I did a beautiful reading on gratitude. I am still meditating on it. The part that got my attention was being grateful for the parts of yourself that you haven't liked. I realized that what I consider to be my character flaws bring me some of my greatest lessons. I'll be contemplating that lesson for a long time. At the end of class, I slipped into meditation myself (I shouldn't when I'm teaching) and forgot to blow out the offering candle. So I ended having to throw it out. I hate to waste, but . . . . what a fabulous feeling.

I did some work at home, then Dan came to pick up Luke and I to see Evan's game. It was an all star game--the best players. Evan played extremely well. He got some good baskets and was excellent at defense. However, the other team has some future stars and a great coach. They ran away with the game.

2/23 I spent this whole day organizing papers and getting bills out. Making calls and taking care of business. It's good to know that I'm making progress at last.

I was tired at night, but ready to teach my Hatha class. Bobby was supposed to come to class, but had to drive the kids to their events. He took away Jennifer's car. Without getting into someone else's karma, I think, in the end, it will be a good thing for everyone.

Tonight there were several new people in Hatha. Natalie took the class. She did a great job meditating. I haven't seen her in ages . Natalie is the wife of one of my fav people. Brian K was my employer for years and years, when I taught at the JCC. He's a fine human being, married to a fine human being. She had her hair done in a cute style. She's interested in how my hair process works. I'll know next week.

Again the meditation part of class was so peaceful that I felt that I could touch God within. I could breath in the peace. I'm so grateful for the excellent students that bring their peace to class.

2/20-21 Plum's, Movie Night: NM, Dinner at PF Changs

2/20 Luke and I taught a meditation and classical music class at MMovement. I realize that I haven't called people. I have to think why I didn't? I'm not sure. Paula Saffire was there. We always like talking with her. She knew Baba and spent time with him. We have a bond. Luke's playing rocks it out. I have to teach basics because the married couple has no experience at all with yoga or meditation.

After class, we meet Em for lunch at our fav Plum's Upstairs. There's a party already there so we don't get our window seat. We all have their signiture French Tomato soup with rice. So delicious. We add a cheese plate. Not ideal for a diet but the cheeses are very fresh and tasty. Em wants to share a decision that she's about to make. We feel fortunate that our adult daughter wants to share with us. I have a good feeling that she'll make a good decision and that she'll be happy.

Luke and I did a few chores and then went home to rest and choose a movie. We chose, "Percy Jackson and the Olympians. " Yes. It's a kids movie. But we like good kid flicks. It had all the ingredients that I love: magic, adventure and fun characters. Also good wins over evil.

2/ 21 This morning the squirrels were out. Two were having a chat on different branches of nearby trees. They were flapping their tails. It was like a conversation in mime. First one tail would flap up and down, then the other.

I got to Nature's Market ready to rock and roll. We had an interesting day. I met a few new customers and I think I was able to help them. One couple was sweet. The wife was there to help and support her husband. I offered them some ideas and I think they were excited to get started.

We had a good day. Cuteness wins out again.

Luke and I met Bobby and Em at PF Changs. This is one of my favs. Even Luke is won over by their delicious flavor profiles. We have fun. Bobby and I love to talk about reality shows. Tonight we talked about "The Millionaire Match Maker."

I had shrimp in garlic sauce with broccoli and brown rice. Perfect. Luke and I shared a tiny dessert. Luke had his fav, hot, fried fish.

Fun and yummy.

2/18-19 BTown & the Littles; Construction, NM

2/18 We work with our contractor and his assistant, Aaron. It's hard to see where the den is going. I feel concerned.

We have a nice drive to B town. We have to talk about some issues, but try to be laid back, and trust that all will be well.

At Xavier's school, Luke goes inside to pick up Xavier. He's excited to tell us about his wins in his favorite game--Lego Super Heros. He keeps going until he succeeds. I've been inspired by him.

At home, Xavier and I play with Pet Society. We've given him a card with lots of prime coins. Now he can buy some of the fun things he wants for his pet--including a machine that transports your pet into another area. Suddenly you are visiting a new pet friend. X was happy to play with the new items he bought. Fun.

We had dinner at the Turkish place. I'm concerned that it will make Luke feel sick, but he wants to go anyhow. It's fun. Violet is in a great mood. She wants to sit on Papa's lap. He feeds her and she eats a little. Then she sits on my lap and I make up a story for her. Different animals come to my house for M&M. The bunny wants one M&M, the kitten wants two and so on. Finally V comes for M&M's and she gets 11. She's very sweet.

The drive home is kind of hard. Lots of traffic and I'm tired. But through grace we get home safe and sound. Although I am tired, I count my blessings.

2/19 Aaron (painter) came to paint the Den/Meditation room. I was concerned. I tend to like warm south westeren colors (Luke likes them too.) I hope it won't be a problem when we sell. I found out that Aaron used to paint demo houses for big contractors. So, he really knows color and what in. We worked together and found colors that I love. Luke was working but I'm sure he's going to love the new colors. Aaron says that the toast ( deeper brown ) that I selected for our accent wall is totally in. I was happy. Soon, Luke and I will put our den back together . There are books all over the floor. We'll give some away and display the rest. We haven't had enough book shelves, but now we do.

Chaos in the morning. I was trying to get my Hatha Yoga done. I had to work with Aaron and Miss Kitty came for her lunch. She's so cute. She loves to watch me get ready for the day, while she is in the bathroom sink. But I have to pay attention to her, to Aaron (luckily he's a cat owner and understands). and get ready for work. The phone keeps ringing. OMG.

I get to work tired. I have a sandwhich, but I'm not really hungry. I give it to Kay because she forgot to bring lunch and I'm not sorry. I get my work done and meet some interesting customers. I think I was able to help a few. I like meeting new people.

2/16-17 Hatha Yoga, Art is picked up--Ohhhh

2/16 The weather was cold. MKate and I went to Target. MKate doesn't shop Target like I do. She likes Costco better. And I did join Costco for Chirstmas shopping, but prefer Target for regular shopping. I think Target is fun. They usually have what I want at reasonable prices. MKate found great gifts for her adorable grandkids--Max and Abbie. It's so strange, Abbie is a lot like I was at her age.

I taught Hatha. OMG I fell into a deep meditation. I almost wasn't able to continue with the class. Which is good. For me. I've felt great ever since. Peaceful and good inside. Happy.

2/17 Went to Dr K. Talked to Judy on the way. She just came back from a visit to her grandkids. Austin's adoption went through today. So it's cool that I called her. He's blond and cute and looks just like the rest of the family. Did I mention big blue eyes. The baby is , of course , the sweetest. Judy is pretty and this baby looks a lot like her.

I finished the painting this morning. That is I had no time to do any more. So it was finished, whether I really thought so or not. And I didn't.

I went to NM and stayed there, luckily there was a lot of work. This was the day that a volunteer came to pick up "Oooooh, Angel's In The Garden." I didn't want to stop working on the painting --sooo . Luckily Kay, manager of NM, needed me to stay.

Luke called me about the Schwan's order. I asked he if the painting was gone. He said yes. So, I did my shopping and went home. I love Schwan's. They have these great meals that you can put in the microwave for 15 min and yay--dinner.

2/13-15 Cirque Du Soleil/Vday/ Verizon -new phones

2/13 We were invited to Cirque Du Soleil in our friend, Matt's suite. At first I was concerned about walking around such a huge space as Conseco Fieldhouse. But as always people are sweet to me. The head guard escorted Luke and I to where we needed to meet Matt (Starbucks) and he took us the easy way.

We had coffee with Matt and Sandy. Then found out we had the use of a suite. It was a lot of walking but I got through it (thanks to my recent weight loss--yes, it makes a difference). We sat in the front row of the suite. There were snacks and drinks.

The Cirque Du Soleil was magical. I loved the mimes. So expressive--funny and moving. I'm not a clown person, but these mimes were not clowns and they were the thread that held the show together. There were two amazing singers. And the acrobats and other performers were awesome. Our favs were a man who seemed to fall from the ceiling. He was held by a bungee cord which he used to almost fly. The audience was transfixed. And a woman who danced with a long ribbon that she used to create flowing, dancing shapes. She also worked with metal hoops. She was able to move them up and down her body. I'm not sure how.

The combination of thrilling acts , magical sets and costumes, and music were enchanting. I'm so excited that we got to see it, and from such excellent seats.

2/14 I came out of the shower to see a huge card on my side of the bed and an adorable toy lion. He purrs and laughs and if you pull his tail he meows. I love him and I'm going to make him a part of my daily morning practices. He can keep away the bad vibs.

I went to NM during the day. At night, MKate, Luke and I had dinner at Noodles and saw a romantic movie--"Valentine's Day." The movie got bad reviews. We liked it (although it wasn't great). The key idea was that if you want to have love in your life, you have to take the person you love faults and all. I think it's true.

2/15 Meditation class very deep. I shared a story from the book, "Meeting God, " which I'm hoping to buy and read soon. The true story was a journey of love and faith that saved the life of a child.

2/10, 11, 12 grandkids, letting go of the old

2/10 Well. Luke and I went to Dr K. After NM, I may have finished the painting. Ohhhh.

2/11 Luke and I go to B-town. We're concerned because Luke isn't feeling well. It's his digestion again. He doesn't eat much lunch, but he wants to see the littles so we carry on.

Luke goes inside the school to pick up Xavier. When they come out, I notice that X's hair is getting long. Rain has decided to let it grow. He looks like a rock star. Xander is one good looking kid. He's excited to tell us about his wins on in the world of t.v. boy games. He's competitive and that will be good for the future.

He has become so cooperative. This school has been good for him. He does his homework with papa--no complants. Then we watch him play his games. I love to sit with him while he plays. He invited me to play with him. I'd rather watch him. When it's time to stop playing, I give X five more minutes and he cooperates. What a difference from last year.

We go to Golden Corral. Luke and I like it. It's not too expensive and the food is good for dieting and for health. It's simple and easy to digest. Luke had no problem eating a big meal. So we're happy. Violet is charming. She comes from day care in her little second hand ballet skirt, sweat shirt and jeans. She's mellow. Not wanting to eat too much, but mellow and sweet to be around. She says I love you gramma. And of course, I love to hear it. X sits between Papa and me. He loves us both and feels completely comfortable with us. We're at peace together.

The meal is comfortable and delicious. We have fun. The trip home is peaceful. I'm grateful that Luke feels better.

2/12 O.K. I had to let go of the home structure that I've known for so long. I hope it will be for the best. I'm not ready to be specific. It was hard for me. I let go.

Mike and Aaron worked all day. I went to NM.

2/6-9 Wow. Four days. Will I remember?

2/6 Movie night. We saw a great movie. I think it will win some oscars for it's stars and etc.

"Crazy Heart. " The acting was amazing.

2/7 Nature's Market. Matt and I have fun, but no one comes in. Maybe three people.

At home, I wanted to finish a pasta dish that I started with Luke this morning. We're bringing it to Em and Bobby's Super Bowl Party. It's a veggie dish so Em and Nicole can enjoy it. We get to Em and Bobbys in time for the kick off. The food is good. Everyone likes Luke and my dish. And I'm especially happy that Jennifer liked our dish and her friend liked it as well. Em and Nicole played scrabble. Jennifer and her friends had their party down stairs. Even and his friend were with us and then upstairs as well. I was in the t.v. room to see the commericals and a little of the game. I also did the Sunday puzzle.

Well, the Colts didn't win. After their fantastic season, everyone was stunned. But the team that did win, The Saints , (New Orleans) brought pride and happiness to a city that had been through hell and back. So Luke and I couldn't be too unhappy.

2/8 Meditation class was beautiful and deep. I did toe relaxation exercise. You visualize your big toe (either one) and then picture each cell, bone , blood and etc relaxing, letting to, in total surrender. Then you allow that feeling of deep relaxation to fill the body and mind. This really helps teach the body/mind what deep relaxation means. Cathy slid into meditation and almost didn't come back for the rest of class. So cool.

MKate came over for lunch. We had a diet lunch. How good are we.

Then Luke and I worked on papers. And worked on papers. And there is a lot more to go.

I worked on the painting. I took a deep breath and made the changes I wanted to make. Scary and I have a way to go.

2/9 Snow. Ice cold. We made this a paper work day. Yes. All day. I feel good and I know that Luke feels good as well. We are making progress. Yay!

1/4-5 The flu, Target: Snow and Chill, Hungry Kitten, NM

1/4 I had a achy night. Still a little fever. Luke was smiling when he came downstairs. He handed me an envelop. It was the 50th anniversary of our first date. Luke gave me an adorable card, making fun of me (in a cute way) for being a cute gramma. It's a joke with our friends and family. Inside was a great gift , personal to us. No. I don't plan to share.

We spent the day doing things. First we went to Target. I got a new watch with a blue face. Candles for prayer. I use lots--every day. And some other fun stuff. Then we went to Goodman's and Luke got two pair of great shoes. Not the usual that doesn't end up feeling good on his feet. Luke spent the gift that Em gave him for Chirstmas. She'll be happy.

1/5 We kept hearing about the big storm. It was supposed to start last night. But it didn't. I was hoping that Luke wouldn't have to work today and drive on slick, icy roads. He's supposed to be on sabatical and he's intitled to stay home on ickky days. Anyway I think so. Even though it didn't snow last night, the sky was very white and looked dangerous. A quiet settled down on our world. The quiet before the storm. And then the snow began to fall.

Of course, Luke being Luke was getting ready to haul it to Butler. I asked him to call and check. Good thing he did. The auditions (that he was going to hear) were due to start right then. There was no point going in. Noone had called to tell him. Yay.

I found out this morning that I had to e-mail my bio to Daren. I'm so excited for this art project. Sooo excited. I spent the morning refining the bio that I started last week. It rocked and said everything I wanted to say about my career. I could see the thread going through all that I've done over the years. I know that God brought this project to me.

MKate ,being the amazing person that she is, was going to work for me today. I wasn't going to let that happen. She worked for me last week so Luke and I could have the Teddy Bear Picnic with Xander.

So with promises to be careful, I set out to work. People who depend on a cane, as I do, have to be more careful than the average bear on wintry or on very wet days. As I'm pulling out of the driveway, I see a bad sight. My little Greyling, the Fairy Princess , is sitting on a lawn chair on our porch. She's cold. And I know she's hungry. If Luke weren't home, I wouldn't have been able to go to work. I called him. He let her right in and fed her. Poor Princess was so hungry that she licked the platter clean. Bless his heart. He's such a loving person and I know how much he loves our Princess.

Work was fun. I got to start work on our new Valentine's day--heart healthy display. I love to work on displays. One of my fav customers came in for a nutrient for his sick puppy. Linda came in to tell a very, very sad story about a little pup that she tried to save. Through God's grace, she found this poor injured pup keeping guard over his dead sib. She brought the poor little guy to the Human Society. They came up and even though it was closing time , they took the little guy right in. They tried but couldn't save him. At least he didn't die alone and scared. I hope little Charlie is with the angels now.

People should respect animals and love them. They are God's creatures. A woman called about her 17 year old cat who was having a bad reaction to dental surgery and wouldn't eat. Now he was hiding under her bed. I just keep talking to her. Finally she had the confidence to try to feed him again. She called me just before I left the store to thank me. Her cat, Pumpkin , had eaten. He was feeling better.

When I went to the car, Linda helped me clear the windows. It was warmer than when I went to work. Also the driving was easier. Yay.

2/3 Dr K, Flu gets me down, I sleep a lot, Luke is sick too

I couldn't sleep last night. I was cold and then hot and then cold. My blankets went on and off.

I ached all over and etc. Thank God for Ocillio.

I got up in time for my appointment with Dr K . I hoped that Luke would drive me, but he was sick as well. My morning routine was cut dramatically. I didn't feel like doing Hatha Yoga, and I didn't want breakfast (can you believe) I got there on time.

Dr K told me that my skin was very hot and that with a fever you don't want to expose others (no NM) ; especially kids (no Btown) I'm so exhausted that I don't even care. After my experience with HiNi, that isn't a happy feeling for me to have. Dr K's daughter just had the same thing. Is that a comfort to me? Kind of. I just don't want to get really sick again.

I got home and just sat down on the sofa, covered up and fell asleep. So that 's what I did most of the day, I read a little and slept a lot. I didn't really want to eat or drink. Luke insisted on going out. So, I asked him for coke.

Tonight. I felt a little better, which encouraged me. My head aches and I'm still sick to the stomach. But, the worst is that scary feeling of exhaustion when it's hard to think about standing up. I pray that I have more energy tomorrow.

Luke let Greyling in . He thought she would cheer me up and she did make me smile. She ate and then wanted to go out again. She climbed up our huge tree and I couldn't imagine how she'd get down. Like the fairy princess that she is, she likes to be up high. And she got down easily. What a cat.

1/31, 2/1, 2 Sun NM, Dinner, 2/1 Med Class, Mindy 2/2 Hair, Hatha

I'm not ready to go to church again. I'm not sure why. I'm contemplating. Some people who know me very well, think that my heart is with yoga--not just the exercises. Yoga has been a serious part of my spiritual journey since I was very young. So . . . .I was able to get my exercises done.

NM was quiet. Matt and I worked and did well. A young man came in. He was deaf and had problems. I went to the back to get some $$$ for him. I knew it wasn't the best idea. He was with a normal guy who refused to talk. He went back to check out Tambra's room which is now locked. I don't know. When I gave the $$$ to the kid, he made a loving gesture. I was touched.

But I won't do it again.

We had dinner at Bobby and Em's. We came late, but I was able to present her with soup. She loves my soup. I used a new bullion cube. Bobby was nice enough to pick up salads for us. It's hard for him. Em is a vegetarian, Luke and I don't eat beef , don't even ask about the others. We ate simple salads with a little protein. It was good for us. I felt cold. I put it out of my mind. It's always fun to hang out with the kids. They are funny and make us laugh.

Bobby took pictures of "the" painting, and of Luke and I with the painting. Tomorrow Em will JPEG the pictures to Daren who is in charge of the charity event. My painting inspired by Luke's music. So exciting.

I was cold. And extra tired. But I ignored the symptoms.

2/1 The meditation class is coming together in a great way. I feel so good after class. I love all the students because they have quiet spirits. I used a reading from the Gita. The essence was: We are all compelled to act, acting without expectation leads to the divine realization. Happiness.

We had dinner with Em at the Turkish place. The food was good. Like so many restaurants, they are struggling. Heera's has already closed. Aww.

2/2 Woke up and had breakfast. I knew I was tired. I had a hair appointment, which I usually love. Not today. I started getting sick with nausea, fever and etc. I didn't realize until Eunice was part way through my color that I was really sick.

I called Luke and asked him to help me canacel my class. Jahana asked me to teach anyway because they are having a sale and several new students signed up.

I asked Bapuji for grace and to be with me. MKate had made other plans but was nice enough to cancel so that she could help me.

Lots of new people. My watch stopped and I couldn't time the class . A woman came with her autistic son, didn't tell me or ask me. He created stress and with the new people --well I just grateful that Bapuji was with me.