10/22/09 Dr K, I meet a Saint, Campbell's noodle soup

I woke up with a light fever and headache; I felt discouraged. I want this virus thing to be over. I did my practices with more focus. In meditation, I fell into a deeper place than I have experienced before. There I realized that I have the tools to heal myself. If God lives within us, we all have the tools to heal ourselves. In a perfect world, we'd know it and fear would be a thing of the past. Healing would be like having a cup of tea. I was so deep that I also saw my grief at the possibility of losing the physical presence of Bapuji. I cried and allowed myself to feel my sadness.

As a long time yogi, I know that we are all a light from the divine candle and that miracles and healing flow from us like rain from the sky. But today, I had an experience of this that went beyond mental knowing.

I went to Dr K for my weekly adjustment. I told him about Bapuji being sick and how much I'll miss him when he's not around anymore. Dr K was so understanding. He helped me remember that Bapuji will always be with me, maybe more so when he's gone with God.

I felt a little better after my adjustment. I was tired and thought I should go home and rest but . . . I wanted my fav Campbell's Chicken Noodle soup for lunch and nothing else would do. I thought if I stopped at Marsh (on the way home it would be all right). And it was. I checked our their veggies which were fresh. And got a Marsh card. I saved almost $9:00.

Now, I had used up my energy. How would I get the groceries inside? Carl was there. He helped me. I learned a lot about his sadhana.

After I had my soup with 3 saltine crackers, I went to sleep.